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Wednesday, September 8, 2010

Negative Frame of Reference

I've been having some bleeding.  I miss one birth control pill, and 4 days later start bleeding.  It hasn't ever completely stopped--it lightens up, but then starts over again--and it's been almost 2 weeks now.  I had a normal period when I was off birth control for that month, and I've had breakthrough bleeding before, but this is different.  Added to that some random bruising, gum bleeding, and nosebleeds,  I called my hematologist.  I almost fell over when the first thing out of his mouth was, "Could you be pregnant?"

What?

This never even crossed my mind.  I mean, since this summer I've taken it as a done deal--pregnancy is not an option.  I somehow managed to sputter out an answer, "I don't know, I don't think so....my husband is working second shift!"  After some conversation, we decided I needed to get in to see my ob/gyn and make sure everything was ok in that respect.  If that is ok, we are going to go from there.  Dr. M said we would look into the platelet growth factors because of how the other treatments have not worked.  I then put a call into my ob/gyn's office, and 2 phone calls during a faculty meeting leter, have an appointment for 8:45 tomorrow morning.  I seriously doubt I'm pregnant, but we have to rule that out just to be sure.


It may be nothing.  However, the only frame of reference I have regarding new medications/new situations is negative.  It takes me back to high school when, instead of sports and parties, it was hospitals and medicines.  At least by college there was stability.  And I don't understand why this is going on.  My allergies have been acting up---could that immune response be related to my symptoms?  If for whatever reason my body is deciding to go back to that high school state, I have a lot of fears.  Again, this bleeding may be nothing and I hope that's what it is.  But the only frame of reference I have is a negative one, so I guess I'll just bake and wait.