Pages

Tuesday, April 12, 2011

Rainbows

My father, the physics teacher, can tell you all about why rainbows happen. He tried to impart that knowledge upon me, but the C I earned in physics would be a testament that I didn't care about the science behind them.

Here's what I know about rainbows. I know the day Jimmy and I were told at Maternal-Fetal medicine we shouldn't get pregnant, there was a rainbow in the sky that evening. And I know that this evening, after a big decision was finalized, I saw another one. Even more promising was that I was on the way home from a friend's house who recently made some very similar decisions. Tonight I saw the love she has for her baby, even though a baby wasn't in her plans, and I saw how happy she was. After seeing the rainbow, I feel even more cemented in that I made the right decision. I asked God for a sign and He gives us what we need.

I feel like this brings us full circle. I feel like God was telling us last summer that better things were on the way, and now I feel like they are here. I am very excited to see what our future holds!

Wednesday, April 6, 2011

Random Thoughts

I've been kind of afraid to blog over the past few weeks. Jimmy and I are making some major decisions and I'm not sure how much I'm ready to share.

I'm not pregnant, yet. This is not unexpected, but I definitely got a taste of that hysterical pregnancy thing. We went to see Dr. M when I was about 5 days post ovulation and he says, "What makes you think you might pregnant?" I prefaced what I said with, "I may be a hypochondriac...." and rattled off a few things that had been different. He's like, "Yeah, it'd be way too early to tell any of that." And maybe it was my body trying to get used to not being on hormones. I thought maybe my body was rejecting a pregnancy because I started bleeding a week before I was supposed to. However, a friend who is extremely knowledgeable about biology explained that the period you have after you go off birth control is not always a "real" period, so this was probably me having a real period.

And I realize now how truly over analytical I can be. This month I'm excited to see what happens, but I've not gone overboard.