Yesterday was a good day. A really good day, and I'm still excited about yesterday.
Today was not such a good day. Something happened this morning that upset me and it has hung over the rest of the day like a rain cloud. Jimmy and I somehow slept extremely late this morning. Staying up til almost 3 probably had something to do with it, and was no help to my emotional state this morning/early afternoon. It's kind of been brewing, I've felt apathetic about quite a few things lately. I wish I had someone to talk to who could actually empathize and offer guidance. There are a ton of resources for infertility, but infertility is a different animal from what I'm dealing with. I still have the therapist's name from Duke and I've sent her an email requesting a referral to someone in this area. I do need to get my medication refilled, and I will do that first thing tomorrow. I have been trying to keep busy with sewing. It's helped some.
I do want to take a vacation, like another cruise, but I know deep-down that won't solve anything. All the issues are still going to exist and need to be dealt with. It kind of reminds me of the scene in The Sound of Music when Maria comes back to the Von Trapp estate and Liesl tells Maria there haven't been any telegrams, "But I'm learning to deal with it. I'll be glad when school starts." Maria replies, "You can't use school to escape your problems. You have to face them!" Thanks Maria.
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